Well, now that high school is all over (finally) I face a period which is seemingly stagnant. I could hardly wait to put four years of dawdling behind me, especially the last one where I grew too far beyond the means which contained me, but it looks like I’ve hit another brick wall.

Summers are not usually very productive for me, nor have any been all that much fun these past few years, and this summer all-ready digs deeper into that trend. It’s odd considering I had a lack of enthusiasm for college for the longest time, but now I find myself mapping out that very road. I’ve figured that I would like to take up study in Philosphy with a minor in Justice or Political Science; this is best option for me since it stresses free and expansive thinking and will lead to a federal position which I’ve kind of subliminally been aspiring for. But that’s a few months away and I have little fodder to work with in that time.

Of course I could always get a job, and I’ve all-ready considered that. But the only kind of work available is behind a cash register or toiling in a factory. A factory I have done before and will never do again; five days a week at Data Display last summer was slave-work. I suppose all entry-level jobs are, they are so mindless - it reminds me of the scene in Shaun of the Dead where they employed post-invasion zombies as cart pushers at Wal-Mart … or whatever store … jobs without a degree are that bad. So, I do not think I shall be taking up any position of employment this summer.

The one thing I really have to focus on is my health. That I’m passionate about and have started practicing Yoga daily, as well as trying to put together a good diet. Later, once I have my weight at the appropriate level I’ll try some modest body-building … which I haven’t had any success with lately, because of bad diet. Though, all of that involves relatively little time consumption on a daily basis - Yoga clocks around an hour and eating is, well, eating hehe.

So it seems like I have some exploring to do, I can’t bare to loaf around and marathon video gaming like I did back in elementary … not unless I could afford a PS3, online play, and, oh yeah, get a job. Needless to say, not going to happen. Oh wait, I forgot, an HDTV, too - that’s a must. XD

Looming nearer and I’m a bit stretched. I still don’t know what to major in; I very much like Psychology but I don’t think I’d enjoy the kind of careers it offers quite as well. I certainly don’t need to be listening to other people’s problems for the rest of my life; I think not! It could possibly serve as a good platform for going into politics, but it wouldn’t be the most logical course of action either. Obviously then I could go for political science, but I just don’t know. Too many options, especially when you throw in things that ‘just sound interesting’ and you might like to give a try, like Diagnostic Medical Imaging. I hadn’t even heard of such a thing until I went to open house for CCP where they handed out this “The Path to Possibilities” pamphlet. And apparently, these people get paid good money for taking a look at X-Rays. Ain’t that something? Doesn’t sound too exciting, however.

I also have a need for scholarship money. I waited too long on that one though, most of the deadlines have passed now. It doesn’t irk me so much since Community is only eight grand in total for attending, which I can easily pay back. I am getting some money from the state (something like four-hundred per semester) plus one-thousand from CORE Philly. I guess that’s not so bad considering my passiveness (DOH!).

On a random note: It’s the Memorial Day weekend BBQ and we’ve got four alcoholic mid-lifers trying to play Wii downstairs; gotta love how holidays bring people together haha.

Saturday morning cartoons no more! At least for this week, anywho. Today I had the irksome task of researching, lots of it. There’s some kind of autoimmune condition going on with me which is producing inflammation of the skin; not the most pleasant feeling. I’ve been drinking lots of herbal teas like licorice root, gotu kola, and astragalus to help alleviate the problem … and it worked well for a while, but now it seems I’m a few squares back. So I learned some interesting things that should help me out, like the specific enzymes in the body which are proimflammatory (interleukin-6 and 31). It looks as if only the astragalus that I had been drinking really has an application here, so I’ll be taking the other two out and adding milk thistle or something of the like. Hopefully things get better - I’ve been researching for a while in all, and it’s a tad bit alarming when knowledge reaches its limits.

That said, I’m also frustrated at the fact that I can’t sit down to write a poem anymore. I’ll jot down a good stanza and then the writing process crumbles. It’s a shame since that’s the way I’m used to channeling my feelings and I can’t seem to find another outlet at the moment. I guess blogs are good for something after all, eh?

Didn’t think I’d be taking one of these (an AP test) this year, that is, until I was reminded that I owe the school district money if I don’t. You see, since they all-ready have testing materials with MY name printed on them, I can’t exactly opt out. It’s not like they can use my test for somebody else, not now anyway *rolls eyes*.

So tomorrow I’ll be sitting in a room with an exam I had no idea I’d be taking, it’ll last somewhere in the vicinity of five hours - a multiple choice and three essays. Boy, I’d rather just go on with a normal day of school, honestly. I’m pretty good at English, much better than I was at history, but as far as writing an impromptu rhetorical and argument essay - I’m not so optimistic. After all, I didn’t want to take this thing in the first place, and now I have to will myself into wanting to do it; sheesh!

Well, I suppose there’s a plus side to all this. That being that I might accumulate some college credit, and I also receive one-hundred points (a free test grade) in AP English just for taking it - which should help my grade average. You might think that’s a great deal, but consider I (probably) won’t be going directly into college, it seems like I still have to go through testing hell tomorrow - great. x_X

Well, the coding is anyway. I’ve been vying for this layout to work since last night, and only now it is starting to come to fruition. What’s worse is that I’m never satisfied with what I have, one minute the blog is up - the next I’m tearing it down because I’m tired (of how it looks). Oh well, I’ll have to try and practice complacency, I make it sound like an art after all.

Anyway, so it’s Sunday, one of the two best days out of the week - and there’s no work to ruin it! For a senior, you’d think I’d deserve a break come May, but the work never fails to pile up. So this Sunday I must especially enjoy my day, thank God it doesn’t take much to do that! hehe.

Also, today I received an invitation for a sweet sixteen birthday party via snail-mail. Who uses that anymore, isn’t there a more efficient way to let people know about this kind of stuff? The only good part is that I get to hang it on the fridge door as a reminder … so, well, I guess it isn’t SO bad lol. May 31st it is, should be fun - I hear some yummy Spanish foods will be there, too. =]

While a week off from school is welcome, I think I need something more to revitalize myself. I wouldn’t necessarily say that means more time per se, but rather just more change. School - at least high school - has become a stigma in my life; it’s just kind of in the way. I want to experience something else and get my head together, being plunked in same environment day-in and day-out doesn’t really offer that. Sometimes that’s why I get to thinking about the military. I couldn’t be father away, and I couldn’t experience more change than in the Army. It’s a little radical, I’ll admit that, but it’s something I seriously consider from time to time, nonetheless. At any rate, the good news is, high school is almost over. I don’t know for sure that I’ll be entering college right away as I fear it would be more of the same, and too soon at that. I may enter the Police Academy and experience that instead. There’s a lot of people who will choose a quick summer job and then go on to college, but I feel more inclined to spend time on something that might take the shape of a career. In that way, I’m not screwed when I decide not to go to college after all.

Anyway, that’s what’s going on through my head right now. I’m sure most people are enjoying their week off, but I’ve been really contemplative all break. Well, just two more short months and things break wide open.

Summer reading is such a bummer. Especially since it isn’t summer anymore.

I mean, I think the powers that be are ignoring the term ‘vacation’ here. You’ll find a wide array of definitions for this term, but I’m pretty sure most people would identify “no work” with ‘vacation’ - SHEESH.

Anywho, there were these two .. novels .. I was supposed to read. One is called “First They Killed My Father”. I thought the title was fascinating. The other is “An Ordinary Man”. This book was worthy of medium-sized-skim. One thing about the latter is it was an autobiography, which always are more interesting for me to wrap my head around. Plus, they made a movie out of it … that’s usually a good indication: e.g., The Da Vinci Code or Jurassic Park - such easier pills to swallow than that “First They Killed My Father” thing.

So, it looks like I’m off to lazy start to a year of academics .. which hasn’t started yet. Well, nothing wrong with a good case of senioritis. Even though I haven’t done any real work since like the end of Sophomore year, but whatever. I’m not realy concerned with college.

On the other side of things, I’ve heard there’s only going to be TWO lunches this year instead of the usual four. Wassupwitdat?!? Supposedly, one lunch will be for underclassmen and the other for upperclassmen. I personally think it’s a dumb idea. Although the school ‘heads’ *rolls eyes* say they could change their minds again in regard to the idea - they better.

Oh well, there’s only one way to find out I suppose. And that’ll be the day after tomorrow. At least I get to see my friends again. XP